Professional Pool Player
I have to say, I was extremely frustrated during the tournament. YES- I was fortunate to place 2nd; I'm still in awe that I managed to luck out and get second haha, but every one of us goes through our own journey to get to these places. I was struggling. Even tournament director, Chris, said to me "you'd have these really good outs, but then just lose focus. I've never seen you do that." It's really what I was feeling.
The lesson is (and I'm ALL about the lessons/take-aways): just persist, keep firing, trust what you came to the tournament with- no more adjustments, no over-thinking. Just make a decision and commit to it. I have NEVER felt that way- so low, so defeated, but the main thing is to not show it either... but I DID show it at times. I had an out-of-body experience.
In any case, I'll be finishing up my degree this December. I'm working with new cue sponsor, Eddie Cohen of Cohen Custom Cues on the balance of my new cue and reading up on how to strengthen my mental game and turn it around, even when I feel defeated. I didn't mope, I was VERY pleased to have battled as long and hard as I did, but I had an internal battle with myself that was a new fight. I exposed a weakness I didn't know was there before and for that I am thankful.